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I used to be that quiet girl, who stood in the back of the room and never really talked to anyone. It was not because I was ugly or did not fit in, it was because I did not know how to be anything other then what I was. I was from a giant family and I was in the middle of them all. Somehow over time, I learned to only speak when I was spoken to, or I was going to be interrupted anyways. I took that frame of mind and applied it to the rest of my life. I was a seventeen year old high school student and I was afraid to make any friends. I showed up at school, sat in the back of the class and only spoke when I was spoken to. After that it was straight home and I was back in the room that I shared with my twin brother Nolan. Nolan was nothing like me. He was loud and also had a million friends surrounding him. He had no problem talking to people and saying what was on his mind loud enough, making sure that the people he wanted to hear him, heard him clearly. I am not sure how we got so different, but we were. Over the last few years, this has caused us to grow apart. We used to do everything together. Even though I did not talk much, Yakacık escort bayan he kept me around and stood up for me when people asked me what my problem was. I guess he was getting tired of me just like everyone else was. I missed the times that I got to spend with him, but I got over it and decided that life was better off with me being alone. I did not need anyone else in my life. Even over the last few years, my parents had started talking to me less and less. I gave up that they were ever going to talk to me again. ?Hey,? Nolan said to me quietly as he tossed his things on his bed and headed for the closet. Every day he did the same thing. He came in, changed clothes and said hey. I always says ?Hey,? back and that was it, we never said anything more and he was on his way. Somehow though, today was different. Nolan changed his clothes in the closet and walked back over to his bed. He grabbed a few things from his backpack and set it on his desk before turning his attention back over to me. He looked at me for a few minutes and then made his way over to my bed and sat down beside Escort Atalar me. ?What happened to you Neska,? he asked me quietly, he seemed concerned and I wanted to reach over and hug him, but I stayed still, not sure what to really do at this moment. ?Nothing happened to me,? I said almost in a defensive manner. Nothing about me had changed over these last few year, the only thing that changed is that I had a family that had completely given up on me and none of them seemed to really care to much about it. ?Maybe it was you that something happened to, not me.? Nolan looked over at me and frowned. I could tell that he knew what I was talking about and he looked like he felt bad about it. ?You just,? he began, trying to defend himself. ?You just never talk and after a while, it really starts to get hard to deal with. It was like no matter what I did you wanted nothing to do with me. I don?t know who you are or why you are like this.? ?Why do you think I am like this?? I asked him, trying to keep myself in the conversation and not pull myself away like I tend to do. ?I don?t know why you Kadıköy escort are like this,? he began. ?Maybe you don?t think you are smart enough or pretty enough to put yourself out there or something. That tends to be a big thing with quiet girls from what I gather.? ?Do you think that I am those things,? I asked. ?Not pretty enough or not smart enough to talk to other people?? ?Of course not,? he said a little more loudly then he had been speaking. ?You are the smartest most beautiful woman I have ever known. That is what makes it all confusing.? ?You ....? I said with a slight stutter, having trouble getting the worlds out of my mouth, ?you think that I am beautiful?? Nolan looked over at me, unsure of what to say. I was sure that he did not mean to tell me half of what he had said, but now it was to late and he had no other choice but to answer my question. ?You are the most beautiful woman I have ever met,? he said with a shaky voice. It was then that he did something that I would never have expected to happen, he leaned over to me and pressed his lips softly against mine. At first I was not sure what I was supposed to do. I knew that this was wrong, but the feelings there were rushing through my mind and my body were anything but wrong. Everything about this moment felt absolutely right, so I kissed him back, pressing my lips harder against his. Nolan lifted himself up a little bit and brought himself to his knees.