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I didn't know I could enter subspace and it eAs I shared in my previous story I was being trained to become a better sub. I spent a week in a 24/7 TPE situation where I was trained and educated to become a better sub.Early on my Master noted I only endured the pain. It felt like a necessity, some kind of bad I had to endure to please my Masters and the enhanced sensation after was my reward. My Master shared with me his plan to change that. I would be made to enjoy the pain and see it as a reward. At the time they didn't share the plan but after I can share the steps they took to reprogram me. It started off by depriving me of sleep. During the day I was trained hard and I was very tired and tried to sleep early. My Master however wouldn't let me. They put me in a cage where I was unable to stretch out. Every 15 minutes they would play very loud music to wake me up. For a bit, after that the quiet returned. But before I could settle in and shut my eyes the music would switch on again. Not that I could have slept, I was covered by bright lights from all sides. Even if I closed my eyes it wasn't dark.After three nights of this I was exhausted. I had no energy left to brace for incoming pain and was forced to take it all. My Masters put me through Avcılar Escort some position exercises whilst being whipped, caned and abused. They ordered me to thank them every time they inflicted pain. Almost absent minded I thanked them every time I registered a hit. At this point I was barely aware of what was happening. After they were done I was tied to a board. It was on an incline and my head was lower than my feet. Strapped to the board my hands were each tied to my thighs on each side. A spreader bar was tied to my feet so my legs were open. Now the fun began. My wonderful Mistress stood on my chest, making it hard for me to breathe. My caring Master punches me in the gut repeatedly. They systematically punch, slap and kick my sensitive parts and control my breath. After receiving some ballbondage my balls were sticking out and Mistress soon turned to kicking them in a rhythm. My Master choked and whipped my nipples.Considering the state I am in it all feels strange, I am so tired my mind can?t focus and the whole experience feels surreal. Looking back I know what they were doing but at the time I couldn?t focus enough to realize where this sequence of events was heading.I received a potent alcoholic drink, Avcılar Escort vodka I think, and a piece of cloth was put over my head. I could feel someone pulling it tightly over my head and without warning I felt water streaming over my face. I couldn?t breath, I gasped for air but with each breath my mouth seemed to take in water. I started to struggle harder and harder and was finally released. I could breathe but not for long. After a few breaths the cloth was pulled over my face again and I felt more water pouring down on me. The experience shook me awake and I became more desperate by the second. My body and mind being exhausted from the sleep deprivation could not handle this sudden state of focus and clarity I found myself in. It wasn?t long until my mind started to spin. I remember the cloth going back over my head and something being placed around or over my head pulling the cloth down. I felt a cane striking the soles of my feet as the waterboarding continued. My mind struggling to keep up with what was happening, I got so used to the rhythm of the cane hits and the counting of my Mistress as she waterboarded me.I lost sense of time. I lost my sense of pain. I lost my sense of fear and worry. I lost myself. Escort Avcılar Last I remembered I got another glass of vodka and the ordeal continued. After that I have no recollection of what happened. Did I pass out? No, no I did not. But the next thing I remember is waking up tied down in a straight jacket and feeling sore all over. As it turned out I slept for 14 hours. I looked around and I could see all kinds of bruises and marks on my body. And that was just on the parts I could see. My skin was burning, my cock was stinging, my balls were throbbing. My nipples, it felt like they were cut off.After a while I was led to the living room by my Master. I was set in front of the TV and they made me watch the movie of me of the whole ordeal. It started at the moment I received the second glass of vodka. I could see myself during my black-out. I could see my face as numerous extreme tortures were inflicted on me. My expression was blank and my Masters subjected my body to terrifyingly beautiful things. You can ask me about it in a PM, I don?t want to type all of it here.After the video ended I was released from my straight jacket and bandages to see the results. I sat at the table and my Masters asked me: ?What did you learn??I answered: ?I learned that I do not matter Master and Mistress. I exist to serve my Masters and take anything they want. I am nothing without them.?They didn?t say anything and I still wonder if I said the right thing. Luckily I got the rest of the day to recover. I needed that.