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**His skin beneath my fingers, I trace feather light patterns on his firm chest. My head is next to my hand as I listen to his heart beat, the steady rhythm of his breathing. His arm is wrapped around my body, relaxed and comforting, and somehow protective. Always protective. I want to be no where else.*?What happened tonight?? Ethan asks in a hushed voice.*?Some of the best sex I?ve ever had,? I reply in a subdued mumble, and my head on his chest slightly jostles from his quiet laughter.*?No, I mean before I got here. I saw you pull up, you seemed, I don?t know...disheveled," he answers, trying to decipher the right expression. I sigh into the dark room, the only light radiating from my alarm clock.*?I?m not entirely sure to be honest,? I confess cryptically.*?What do you mean?? I debate for a moment whether or not he?ll want to hear this, and ultimately decide there?s no point in keeping it a secret.*?Um..I was...I don?t know, kind of seeing someone for the last week,? I admit, and when I feel him become unnaturally still beneath me, I try to contort my next words to placate him. I?d rather make him happy than dipshit right now. ?To be honest, I was trying to get my mind off of you. I didn?t want to cause anymore discord for you, and I thought it would be a good idea to just try and move on. But today..I don?t even know what happened,? I mumble, again, trying to get a grip on what the whole situation Erzincan Escort at Eugene?s house really means.*?Tell me,? Ethan urges in his smooth voice.*?I found him fucking Taniyah at his house tonight,? I just say it, and the words don?t burn near as much as my thoughts had before Ethan arrived.**?Are you serious?? he asks, the first words to break a whisper.*?Yeah, I mean, like I said, we weren?t serious or anything, but they only met each other five days ago. I had talked to him earlier today and he sounded upset, so...I wanted to surprise him, went over to his house, and I heard someone screaming inside, and I?m dead serious, I thought someone was in trouble.? I breathe a laugh of disbelief on my part. ?I walked into his house and...there they were.?*?They met five days ago?? he asks, clarifying that point of the story.*?Well, I thought they met at that house party we had, remember when we played quarters and that night you and me and...well anyway, he was there. But, I don?t know, I could see they hit it off, and I should have said something. I just, I don?t know?? I trail off, growing uneasy.*?Wait, was this that one guy--?*?Eugene?? I ask, wondering if that?s who he?s thinking of.*?The sculptor ,? he says, and I snicker.*?Yeah that?s him.?*?Chanel, that guy was a fucking tool,? Ethan says, I laugh. ?And clearly he?s as dumb as a box of fuckin rocks. Any guy would Erzincan Escort Bayan be lucky to have you.? His words make me blush slightly and I shake my head.*?Shut up, Ethan.?*?I?m serious,? he says, squeezing my hip to emphasize his certainty.*?Did you forget to include yourself in that category?? I question jokingly, but immediately regret it. I move my head to look up at him with a guarded expression. He stares down at me with eyes hard as emeralds.*?I'm joking,? I say in hopes of dissipating the tense atmosphere. There's no way I would ever, EVER, pressure him into anything. Ethan?s hard look softens and he sighs.*?Things were definitely complicated,? he says, and I nod.*?Yeah no shit. I?m tired of everything being so complicated,? I reply, and rest my chin on the back of my hand that?s still on his chest.*?Me too,? he agrees. ?I?ve had enough drama to last me a lifetime.? His tone is a little darker with that comment. We marinate in our thoughts for a moment, and he breaks the silence when my eyes meet his.*?Lets keep this uncomplicated then, shall we?? he asks, and I knit my eyebrows together.*?What do you mean??*?This.? His eyes flash down as if motioning to us in general.*I smile and tilt my head. ?I couldn?t agree more. Just..be honest with each other. Take it slow,? I suggest, and when he smiles widely at me, I know he?s on the same page.*?Honesty. I like Escort Erzincan that.? He caresses my back as he speaks. I plant a soft kiss on his chest and he gives me a wicked grin.*?I?ll start,? he announces, and I giggle at his expression. ?Honestly Chanel, I never want you to run away from me again.? As his sentence progresses, he gets more serious, and I stare back into his intent eyes.**?Honestly, I don?t want to run away from you. I never did. I guess I just...didn?t know how to handle what was happening," I confess guiltily, only now beginning to comprehend that I hurt him.*?I understand. I hope I don?t give you any more reason to.? He hesitates then, and I wait for his next words. ?I helped Nicole get the rest of her shit out of my house,? he says in a quick, harsh tone. ?I?m over her. I?m over it, all of it. She acted like a fucking child when it was all said and done, and now...I don?t feel an ache where the hole she ripped through my heart had been. I still feel the betrayal, you know, but..she?s not on my mind anymore.? When he utters that last sentence, his piercing eyes are resolute. It?s clear who has been on his mind. I bite my lip and am unsure what to say at first.*?Well..I?m glad you?re figuring things out for yourself.? He smiles and pulls me further up his body, my face now right in front of his, laying right on top of him.*?That?s why I came over. Since we?re being honest, I guess you could say I finally figured out...how important you are to me.? The lightest flush crosses his cheeks, and I can tell he?s nervous to air his views, and it?s so fucking cute. I smile and bring my lips to his, and he deepens the kiss, grabbing the back of my head and keeping me there.